The Real Housewives of Salt Lake City star Britani Bateman and her on-off boyfriend, Jared Osmond, are breaking down where their relationship currently stands after a season of drama. "There's a lot of speculation behind it, and there's so much I can say. I do love Britani," Jared, 55, began on the Wednesday, December 31, episode of the "Viall Files" podcast. "My relationship with Britani has been tumultuous in that, here we are at 55, we are both still going through divorces. We're both divorced, we've been bifurcated, but I'm six years in and she's three and [we are both still dealing with separating assets]. It's been kind of hard." When Britani made her RHOSLC debut in season 5 as a "friend of," she was dating Donny Osmond's nephew Jared. Their relationship has since gone through many ebbs and flows, culminating with Britani initiating a 30-day break from Jared during season 6. They've since been spotted together on multiple occasions after filming wrapped. "The first season was hard [because] Britani and I did not understand the rules of engagement," Jared recalled. "We got on the show, and then we broke up. We would literally break up every month. It looks terrible because it is." Donny Osmond Reached Out to Nephew Jared After 'RHOSLC' Drama Keep scrolling for Britani and Jared's biggest relationship revelations on "The Viall Files" podcast: Why Jared and Britani Keep Breaking Up Jared estimated that he and Britani have separated "at least" 24 times over various issues that arose in their relationship. "We've hit the pause button because, 'This isn't working' or 'I don't like the show," he said. "I just go to the gym, drink a protein shake and try to get over it. ... I went through some tough things in my divorce, tough things in the dating life and sometimes I have to just, kind of, step back. It's not because I don't love her and it's not because I don't want to be with her, it's just I have to step and analyze and go, 'What are we doing? Why is a show in the middle of everything we do?'" He added, "The reason that we break up is because of me, I take full responsibility for that." Where Jared and Britani Stand Now Fans watched their emotionally charged breakup at the riverbed, which was filmed back in May. "We literally got back together right before Thanksgiving, just recently," Jared revealed. "I've dated and gone out with really wonderful people and that kind of thing, but it's always that feeling that I have. ... She's my best friend [and has been] for all these years, and there's a closeness and kindness between us. We're never mean to each other. It's just moments of pause going, 'OK,' and a lot of it has to do with me. I don't necessarily break up, but she gets nervous." According to Jared, he and Britani are "thriving" as a couple while also taking their next steps slowly. "We want our children to be on our team, and we know we need to show them some sort of stability," Jared explained. "Whether they do or not, I'm not going to hold my breath. Britani has a great relationship with her kids. I thought I did with mine, but there's a couple [who] are very triggered by Britani and I together. ... It's not Britani, it's the show." Britani, for her part, added that they were not an official couple during BravoCon in November when she kissed him mid-panel. Courtesy of Britani Bateman/Instagram Jared and Britani Have Discussed Marriage "There is timing behind this, and the timing is truly at this age, and it's just a number," he told podcast host Nick Viall. "We have other things to consider, including our children." The pair were very briefly engaged during RHOSLC season 6, which Jared ultimately called off. "It didn't end badly. It ended with a pause with me going, 'I'm a little sketchy on even the idea of marriage,'" he recalled of the whirlwind proposal. "Because of my trauma, and that is what it is. ... I don't know what we're doing, but these are sacred things. These are private conversations." How Britani and Jared First Met Jared initially met the Bravo star after his ex-girlfriend started dating Britani's ex-husband. "They got together, and we had no idea," he said. "I called Britani, and said, 'Are you aware of this?' There's so many details I'm going to purposefully leave out, but she was shocked. I was shocked. We literally trauma-bonded into the relationship, and that's exactly how it started. For a month, we just spoke on the phone [and] I had no idea what she looked like." Britani, meanwhile, said that they first "fell in love as friends" while Jared worked through his feelings about his ex's abrupt then-new romance. "I was ready for a relationship ... [and] was in a completely different spot," she recalled. "He was not, and so he had one foot out the door because he wasn't emotionally ready to commit but he loved me, and so he was straddling this, 'I want you, but I don't want you. I'm not ready.' Over the course of two and a half years, it switched, like, every time he pulled something [simi