Kate Beckinsale broke down in tears while speaking candidly about her difficult 2025 and managing her grief. "So as we end 2025, which was a really, really hard year, it was also the last year that my incredible mom was on this planet, so I feel really torn about letting go of it as well," Beckinsale, 52, told her followers in an emotional video shared via Instagram on Wednesday, December 31. "But I just wanted to address the fact that I lost my stepfather a while ago, a couple of years ago, and I'd already watched my father die because my mom was in hospital and it was just me," she continued. "At the age of 5, I watched my 31-year-old father die of a huge heart attack and then I watched my stepfather die, and then I watched my mother degenerate and die in such an incredible amount of suffering, and I will say, it doesn't make you feel very hungry. And I don't know if there's some kind of survivor guilt because it started after my stepdad died, and it's not like anorexia where you're starving and it's a kind of willpower thing." Beckinsale went on to say it's like "your body has closed down," which she thinks is a response to "shock and trauma." Kate Beckinsale Poses for Tearful Selfie in Hospital: 'Send Balloons' "I think watching, especially alone, the people that you love the most dearly suffer and have horrific and sometimes violent, awful deaths really makes you not hungry," she continued. "And people respond in different ways, obviously, but if you google physical manifestations of grief, changes in appetite is probably the first one. Even after a bad breakup, I think it's the first one. But I will say that because of my dad and my stepdad and my mom, I am so grateful that it wouldn't occur to me to see somebody transparently suffering and write something nasty about their appearance. It just wouldn't cross my mind. I am so grateful to have been brought up by people who raised me like that. And I really miss them." Beckinsale particularly addressed "all the people who are inconvenienced by me being too thin or too anything or not what they expect me to be like," saying that she wishes they had loving parents like she had. "I'm so glad that suctioning blood clots from my stepdad's bladder while he's suffering heart failure and trying to save his life and having to be the one to stop chest compressions on my mother as they broke all her ribs has not turned me into the type of cruel piece of s*** that would say the stuff that a lot of you guys say to me," she concluded. "I absolutely refuse to become like it. And if that's the legacy from my parents that I would never ever do that to anyone, I am so f***ing proud of it." The comments section of the post flooded with love for the Serendipity actress. "You speak for many of us that have experienced such grief, Kate - hang in there, you're not alone. We find ways to return joy into our lives - and you help us all with your immoral movies, which give me joy. Your wit and humor will return - it's important to grieve; the fruit falls from the tree when it's ripe. 💞," one follower wrote. Courtesy of Kate Beckinsale/Instagram "There are far too many unkind people in this world! Please know that the kind ones hold you in their heart always! We love you darling Kate xxxxx," a second supporter said. "Sending you all the love in the world, Kate. Your family in the UK are here and thinking of you. Much love and support ❤️," Amy Beckinsale wrote. Kate announced the death of her mother, Judy Loe, on July 15 at age 78 after a battle with stage IV cancer. "She has been brave in so many ways, forgiving sometimes too much, believing in the ultimate good in people - and the world is so dim without her that it is nearly impossible to bear," Kate wrote via Instagram at the time. "Mama, I love you so much. This has been my greatest fear since finding my father dead at five and I am here. Oh my Mama.. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. I am so sorry." Less than a year prior, Kate took to the social media platform to share news of stepfather Roy Battersby's death at 87 after a brief illness on January 10, 2024. "I fought for you with everything I had. Oh Roy I am so sorry I lost," she captioned a video montage of Battersby via Instagram on January 15, 2024. At the start of 2025, Kate opened up about her heartbreak in another post. "I am so lucky that I was raised by someone who uncompromisingly knew what was right and lived it. And loved me," she wrote in a January 10 tribute to her stepdad. "Thank you for being my father. I miss you so much."