Hallmark actress Taylor Cole and her husband, Cameron Larson, have privately navigated infertility for several years. "I've been dealing with infertility issues for the past three years," Cole, 41, said on the Thursday, December 4, episode of Ryan McPartlin's "That's Awesome" podcast. "I'd say that's a pretty big chunk of who I am and who I've become. The journey that's come with it has really changed me for the better." Cole further acknowledged that she "doesn't have the Hallmark happy ending yet," but she hasn't given up hope. "[I have learned] to surrender to the outcome that will eventually be whatever it is that life has planned for me," she said. "It's all a constant wheel in motion of figuring things out, [but] it's been really getting rid of chemicals that I will forever live longer and healthier. My [future] kids will be healthier, and future me will thank me for all the sacrifices I made." Stars Who Struggled to Conceive Children Share Their Fertility Issues Cole, who married Larson in 2020, has undergone five failed in vitro fertilization (IVF) cycles. In preparing for each attempt, the actress cut out caffeine and alcohol and adopted a gluten-free diet. Keep scrolling for more of Cole's insights into her fertility journey: Hiding Her Emotions at Work Ryan McPartlin and Taylor Cole in 'Double Scoop.' Courtesy of 2025 Hallmark Media Cole told McPartlin, her costar in this summer's Double Scoop, that she learned that her last IVF cycle had failed in the middle of shooting. "It does help that we're shooting something so beautiful and that the fans on such a grateful level, so that reminder [for me] to step into the scene and being filled with gratitude to even have the opportunity to get to play these characters," Cole said of compartmentalizing her emotions while filming Hallmark scenes. "Helping get into that mindset of gratitude [helped me deal with it] is huge." After scenes wrapped, Cole would "give [herself] the time to reflect and sit in" her emotions. "It's a balance, and also know that the shoot is only three weeks long," she said. "I have what I would call my one superpower, which is sort of a Polly Anna-esque mindset of, 'It happened to you for a reason and let's not dwell in the why me?'" Cole filmed Double Scoop on her birthday, which also was the day that she took a pregnancy test. "I got the bad news I started another [period] cycle, which means I was not pregnant," Cole recalled. "It's a full day of everyone [being] excited it's your birthday. You have all these loving, beautiful people coming up to you, 'Happy Birthday.' You should be happy, but you're, like, 'I just want to cry.'" Health and Other Challenges Cole overhauled her diet and added more frequent workouts to her daily routine amid each IVF cycle. She also needed to take her Hashimoto's disease into consideration. (Hashimoto's is an autoimmune condition that affects the thyroid.) "Because I have Hashimoto's, I have to take a pill that reduces your bone density," she said. "[I've learned how] to push things that make me uncomfortable and realize that's for the best [because oftentimes] my joy is giving to other people. You can't always do that, and you have to [take care of yourself] first. That was a whole unraveling of emotions, like, 'Am I worthy? Do I have the time to commit to myself?'" Celebrities Who've Opened Up About Freezing Their Eggs She's Done With IVF Cycles "It was all exactly what I needed to get me to this place," Cole said of her difficult journey. "It is what it is, and it will come when it's supposed to." According to Cole, she doesn't plan to "do any more" IVF rounds. "I'm in a full surrender mode at 41, saying, 'You know what? That spirit will choose me when it's ready, and if not, it'll be in another lifetime,'" she said. "I'm here for whatever life brings me." Breaking Down the Cost of IVF "I'd like to have the money back from five rounds of IVF and two frozen embryo transfers, but other than that it," Cole joked, revealing that each cycle cost around $25,000. "And I've done it five times, and that's not even with the acupuncture that I spend $5,000 a month on [to help]. That's why I'm not doing it anymore. I'm done. I'm tapped out."