The Osbourne family is opening up about the "horrible grief" they've been left with in the wake of Ozzy's death. On Wednesday, the famous family dropped the first joint episode of their The Osbournes podcast in over a year to reflect on their patriarch's passing in July. Through tears and a shaky voice, Kelly expressed: "I never realized just how horrible grief is. I never knew I was capable of loving somebody so much and missing somebody so much. I just, I never thought there'd be a day where he wouldn't be here." In response, her momma Sharon reminded her to look at the situation positively: "But then how blessed are you to have had a dad like him?" Such a sweet point, but it doesn't make the loss any easier. Related: Fresh Prince Of Bel Air Child Star Floyd Roger Myers Jr Dead At 42 The matriarch revealed her struggles come in "waves" - particularly at night as she now finds it difficult to sleep alone: "I hate going to bed at night." But Kelly was there for her for MONTHS: "I mean, I slept with you for the first two months so that you weren't on your own. But then I felt like you needed some space." While her mother's grief comes at night, Kelly revealed hers often comes in the morning: "I wake up and for the first three seconds I feel normal. And then I remember everything. Mornings are the hardest for me. What is the morning? Because [Ozzy passed] in the morning. And I used to spend most of my time with Dad in the morning." Awww. So heartbreaking. The Fashion Police alum acknowledged that her father would "hate" to see her crying, but noted "it's just all I seem to find myself doing these days because I miss him so much." However, her 3-year-old son Sidney, whom she shares with Sid Wilson, has helped her power through this difficult time: "I'm just so grateful that Sidney got to meet him. And that they had such a special little relationship. If it wasn't for my baby boy..." Kelly trailed off as Jack chimed in to agree: "Having the kids has been a huge help." He went on to share what grief looks like for him: "It is both horrible and beautiful in the way that it forces you to unpack and examine things. Like, yeah, it sucks that he's gone, but also, for me, it has led to a huge amount of gratitude and love and like really cherishing moments that at the time you take for granted." The trio all agreed that one thing that's helped has been seeing the unwavering "outpouring" of love from fans. Kelly said: "The outpouring of love has been so helpful to us. I never could have even imagined it to be as helpful as it has been to know that we're not alone in our grief, in our sadness and that the rest of the world loved him as much as we did ... I haven't seen an outpouring like that since Princess Diana died. I didn't expect it." Sharon tagged on to recognize that Ozzy would have been shocked by the amount of love: "Ozzy, he wouldn't believe it. He wouldn't. He didn't realize how much he was loved and that was his beauty because he never took it for granted from anyone. He never took it for granted I'm this, I'm that. He had no idea." So many emotions. You can hear more from the heartfelt podcast (below): It's been a long and difficult journey for the Oisbournes as they navigate this tremendous loss. But we're glad to hear they're sticking together. Sending them lots of love as they continue to grieve this passing! Reactions, Perezcious readers? [Images via The Osbournes/YouTube & WENN] The post Sharon, Kelly, & Jack Osbourne Fight Back Tears While Reflecting On 'Horrible Grief' After Ozzy's Death appeared first on Perez Hilton.