Erika Kirk sat down for her first televised interview since the death of her late husband, Charlie Kirk, earlier this year. "I can't help [but] smile to hear his name or say it," Erika, 36, said during the Wednesday, November 5, episode of Jesse Watters Primetime. "He was the love of my life. [He] still is." Charlie and Erika were married from May 2021 until his death in September. The couple shared two children: a daughter and a son born in 2022 and 2024, respectively. Charlie was shot and killed on September 10 while speaking at Utah Valley University in Orem, Utah. The Turning Point USA cofounder died after being transported to a local hospital. He was 31. Erika and Charlie Kirk's Relationship Timeline: Inside Their Love Story "It's with a heavy heart that we, the Turning Point USA leadership team, write to notify you that early this afternoon, Charlie went to his eternal reward with Jesus Christ in heaven," Turning Point USA said in a statement at the time. Accused shooter Tyler Robinson turned himself into police two days later. He has yet to enter a plea to charges of aggravated murder, felony discharge of a firearm, two counts of obstruction of justice, two counts of witness tampering and violent offense committed in the presence of a child. Two days after Charlie's death, Erika broke her silence in an X livestream. "Charlie, I promise I will never let your legacy die, baby. I won't," she said in the video. "Oh, Charlie, I love you. I love you, baby. Rest in the arms of our Lord as he blankets you with the words I know your heart always strives to hear. Well done, my good and faithful servant." Who Are Charlie Kirk's Children? Meet His Son and Daughter Later that month, Erika delivered an emotional eulogy during Charlie's public memorial service, explaining why she chose to forgive her husband's alleged shooter. "I forgive him because it is what Christ did," she said. "The answer to hate is not hate." Charlie Kirk. Andrew Harnik/Getty Images Erika elaborated on her feelings about the matter in a New York Times interview published the same day as the memorial service. "I've had so many people ask, 'Do you feel anger toward this man? Like, do you want to seek the death penalty?'" she told the outlet. "I'll be honest. I told our lawyer, I want the government to decide this. I do not want that man's blood on my ledger. Because when I get to heaven, and Jesus is like: 'Uh, eye for an eye? Is that how we do it?' And that keeps me from being in heaven, from being with Charlie?" Charlie Kirk Shooting Death Investigation: Updates on the Case The following month, Erika reacted to criticism of her public grief over Charlie's death. "There is no linear blueprint for grief. One day you're collapsed on the floor crying out the name Jesus in between labored breaths," she wrote via Instagram in October. "The next you're playing with your children in the living room surrounded by family photos and feeling a rush of something you can only attempt to define as divinely planted and bittersweet joy as a smile breaks through your face." She continued, "They say time heals. But love doesn't ask to be healed. Love asks to be remembered. It's humbling to realize that this magnitude of suffering didn't steal my love for my husband. It amplified it. It crystallized it." Erika added that she carries Charlie "in every breath, in every ache and in every quiet act of day to day living as I attempt to relearn what that rhythm will be." "And what I've realized through these past 30 days is the greater the suffering, the purer the love," she concluded. "And I have never loved him more than I do now." Keep scrolling for the biggest revelations from Erika's sitdown with Watters: Erika Kirk and Charlie Kirk 'Always' Received Death Threats Erika Kirk shared that before Charlie Kirk's murder, she and her husband were used to receiving alarming messages online. "We get kidnapping threats we always have," she said. "We get death threats we always have." Before Charlie's college tour appearance, Erika brought up the idea of him wearing a safety vest. "I used to say, 'You know Charlie, have you ever thought about wearing a vest?' He would nod to that and be like, 'I've looked into it,' but he would always say, 'if they're going to get me, they're going to get me,'" she recalled. "He wasn't afraid. It wouldn't have mattered." Why Erika Kirk Wasn't With Charlie Kirk at College Tour Stop During the time of Turning Point's event in Utah, Erika Kirk needed to stay behind in Arizona with her mom for a health issue. "He was like, 'Home needs you ... Come with me on Thursday to the next event we have. That night, he was so excited," she said, adding that Charlie Kirk was running late in the morning and didn't have time to give her a goodbye kiss. How Erika Kirk Learned About the Shooting Erika Kirk explained that she was with her mom at a "doctor's appointment" before she got the call about her husband's death. "I have my phone, and I see the video com