The Golden Bachelor season 1 star Gerry Turner had a lot to say about his ex-wife Theresa Nist in his new book. Golden Years: What I've Learned from Love, Loss, and Reality TV finally dropped on Tuesday, November 4, nearly a month after the 74-year-old first teased the explosive memoir in his Us Weekly digital cover story. "I was filled with all these stories about what happened that never got to be seen, and feelings I had about some of the people on the show that I kept to myself," he told Us last month. "I decided, 'Hey, it's time to try and tell the whole story, and not just the portions that are good to the general public.' But as I got into the process, I realized I also wanted to fall back to the goals we had on the show - to keep yourself open to opportunities, enjoy life, don't walk by anything that may be good for you just because you've gotten older." Bachelor Nation watched Gerry and Theresa get engaged in fall 2023 and exchange vows in a live wedding ceremony in January 2024. They called it quits after just three months of marriage. In the book, Gerry makes several claims about their relationship, including that he felt "trapped" by the decision to wed. He also alleges she broke their pact not to speak about the split. "The question was constantly, 'Why are they getting divorced so quickly?' And I was, I believe, made out to be a villain," Gerry told Us. Golden Bachelor's Theresa and Leslie Want a 'Redo' Amid Gerry Memoir Drama Theresa, who previously stated that she was not given a heads-up from Gerry about any of the content in the book, released a statement to Us at the time: "It makes me very sad to think that he felt empty and trapped. I wish he had said something and just ended it. But at least now I understand why he was so hurtful to me so many times. And I will say this. Those in glass houses should not throw stones. I do wish him all the best." Golden Years is out now. Scroll through for the biggest takeaways about Gerry and Theresa's relationship: Initial Connection to Theresa In the book, Gerry was initially complimentary of Theresa, calling their first kiss "historic" and comparing her ability to ease his first date nerves to his relationship with Toni. The twosome also bonded over the losses of their respective spouses. "The joy and mutual affection of finding someone who fit so well was overwhelming," he recalled of their first one-on-one date. Theresa Nist, Gerry Turner Everett Collection Kathy and Theresa's Feud During the season, Theresa butted heads with some of the women, including future fan favorite Kathy Swarts, over how confident she was in her connection with Gerry. "At the time, I thought of her as innocently trying to be a good companion, manipulated by the others to overshare. Naturally talkative, she can really put words together!" he wrote of Theresa. "Turns out, I was the easiest one to manipulate." Gerry concluded that Theresa was "unable to read the room" and was "rubbing" it in with her "counterproductive" apologies. Retroactive Red Flags at Theresa's Hometown "Something about her answers felt rehearsed," he wrote of conversations with Theresa during her hometown dates episode. "Her delivery was slow and deliberate. There's nothing wrong with thinking before you speak, but with Theresa it was as if she were running through a list of words until she hit on the one who thought would appeal to me." Regrets About Leslie and Faith Gerry struggled with how he hurt the other women on the show, especially runners-up Faith Martin and Leslie Fhima. He reflected on being caught up in the moment when he said "I love you" to Faith - not long before he sent her home. Theresa Nist, Gerry Turner Eric McCandless/Disney via Getty Images "Was this genuine love? If that was true, I didn't want to file it away. On the other hand, if this was simply a visceral reaction to the warmth of Faith's obviously loving family and the momentum of the show, I needed to figure that out - and quick. I was so confused," he wrote. "The only thing I knew for sure was that I wanted ice cream. I love Dairy Queen ... sadly, even my favorite Blizzard did nothing to help me sort out my bewilderment." Gerry noted he has "several regrets" from his time as the Golden Bachelor, but judging Leslie for her past marriages and financial situation after conversations during their overnight date still haunted him at the time of writing the book. "I still have gut-wrenching pain when I think about the way I hurt her," he wrote. The Proposal "Standing on the platform set up for the proposal, I felt empty," Gerry wrote of proposing to Theresa just moments after ending things with Leslie. "I had already made the decision that I was going to propose to Theresa, so the feeling wasn't my resolution. Rather there was no happiness in the moment." Gerry Turner, Theresa Nist Everett Collection While he chalked up his "dark mood" to "lack of sleep" and empathy for Leslie at the time, Gerry also admitted in the book that he doe