[Warning: Potentially Triggering Content] A Nebraska woman is opening up about a terrifying kidnapping that nearly claimed her life. And it was all at the hands of her ex-boyfriend. Jesserae Beck, a Lincoln mother of three, is currently recovering after a brutal attack... one that left her with a collapsed lung, patches ripped out of her hair, metal pins in her ribs, and other severe injuries. But she's alive - and able to tell her story. In a vulnerable interview with KOLN published this month, the 42-year-old opened up about a relationship with ex-boyfriend Christopher Collins, which turned abusive over the summer: "I met Chris in July of last year. We started seeing each other, going on dates. Our relationship was kind of on-and-off." Contents [hide] 1 Relationship Turns Abusive 2 The Kidnapping 3 The Rescue 4 A Complex Situation Relationship Turns Abusive The 42-year-old reminisced on cooking with the 36-year-old - something they both enjoyed doing. But in August, a switch flipped in him. Beck told the outlet: "He never laid a hand on me previously. Never would I have ever imagined that any of this would have ever taken place, to be honest." Related: Healthcare Exec & Her Husband Arrested After Leaving Infant Alone On Beach! But that's exactly what happened. According to Beck, Collins savagely beat and strangled her that month, leading her to file for a protection order. Per court docs, Collins choked Beck, punched her in the face, smashed her head into the floor, and broke her ribs. In her filings, Beck wrote that she felt as if Collins was going to kill her. She told the outlet: "It was like he snapped into a completely different realm. It was hard for me to understand, like, why would you do this? Why would you have wasted all the things that you've built as a man, to hitting a woman and could possibly lose everything?" After the vicious August attack, Collins was arrested and charged with assault by strangulation. However, unbelievably, the two ended up finding their way back to one another after the brutal incident. Collins apparently informed Beck he wanted to move forward with a plan they had been mulling over for months: IVF. Because that's a great plan after abuse - bring kids into it. She told the outlet: "For some reason I was searching for closure, and I shouldn't have been. And it tore me apart. It didn't tear me apart that I had gotten beat. I was more worried about him and how he was feeling in those moments." That's just so heart-wrenching. But just goes to show the sort of manipulation abusers inflict on their victims. On the night of September 24, the pair went to the court so Beck could ask for the protection order to be lifted. And that same night, she left her home to bring Collins a meal, telling her daughter she'd be quick. Instead, she didn't return home at all. The Kidnapping Beck told the outlet the next thing she remembers is waking up in one of Collins' rental properties with no recollection of anything that had happened. He told her he had struck her, apparently SO BRUTALLY that he thought he'd killed her: "He actually thought I was dead, essentially, and he didn't know what to do. I'm waking up in a completely different house, but he wasn't expecting me to wake up, I think was the thing." She recalled feeling sick after getting up to use to bathroom in the dark, so she went and laid down: "I went to go lay down and I laid down in a different bedroom than him. And then next thing I know, he's yelling, panicking, wondering where I'm at. At this point, I had no idea what had happened. It's like my body was in a state of shock or something." So, she got in bed with Collins - bloodied and still with no memory of what happened beyond what he told her: "Listening to a man tell you what he did to you, and you have to lay next to him for several hours, all while he's telling you how much he loves you, and that we were so close to the end; that was hard for me to process." "Close to the end"... JFC. According to Beck, Collins admitted to her the assault was "really bad this time" and that he didn't want her to see her own face because of it: "How did the person that I love so much bring us both here? Like, not only is he ruining my life, but he's ruining his own. And I couldn't fathom what was going through his head, nor did I want to ask." But in that moment the main thing on her mind was trying to "buy as much time as I could so that nothing bad happened to me." But Collins' behavior kept getting more and more deranged: "When he first got me into the other bedroom, he asked me if I would slit his throat, and I said, 'I cannot do that and I will not do that'" ... I said, 'I will not watch somebody I love bleed out by the hands of myself.' And he said, 'Well, then I'll kill you and then I'll kill myself.'" And at that moment, she told him to do whatever he felt like he had to. Whoa. Collins did NOT kill her - and in fact thanked Beck for not killing him as he asked. He even told her he'd t