Victoria Beckham is getting candid about her struggles with an eating disorder and trying to control her weight. "I don't know what I saw when I looked in the mirror," Beckham, 51, says in her docuseries Victoria Beckham, available to stream on Netflix Thursday, October 9. "Was I fat? Was I thin? I don't know. You lose all sense of reality. I was just very critical of myself. I didn't like what I saw. It's been a lot and that's hard." Victoria remembers losing "all sense of reality" after the Spice Girls broke up in 2000.