"I Say This As A Man, Why Are Some Of Us So Sick?": Natalie Portman Talking About The First Fan Mail She Ever Received At Age 13 Is So Disturbing, Millions Of People Are In Disbelief Watching This Resurfaced Clip

Posted 33 minutes agoSubscribe to BuzzFeed Daily NewsletterCaret Down"I Say This As A Man, Why Are Some Of Us So Sick?": Natalie Portman Talking About The First Fan Mail She Ever Received At Age 13 Is So Disturbing, Millions Of People Are In Disbelief Watching This Resurfaced Clip"I say this as a man, why are some of us so sick?"by Krista TorresBuzzFeed StaffFacebookPinterestLink Warning: This post discusses sexual assault. Before she became one of Hollywood's most beloved actors, Natalie Portman got her start around 10 years old, when she was approached to do modeling by a talent scout at a pizza shop in Long Island. Barry King / WireImage After expressing that she would rather act instead, she was connected to an agent. By age 13, she made her film debut in Léon: The Professional. Patrick CAMBOULIVE / Sygma via Getty Images The film launched her career, but also exposed her, as a child, to the disturbing realities of how young girls are sexualized in the public eye - something Brooke Shields has been open about experiencing at a young age. Kevin.

Mazur / WireImage Fast-forward to 2018, where Natalie gave a deeply personal speech about sexualization double standards at the Women's March in Los Angeles, striking a chord with millions of people. Amanda Edwards / Getty Images for The Women's Mar Now, seven years later, a resurfaced excerpt from that speech is going viral on TikTok with nearly 2 million views. In her speech, Natalie recalled feeling ecstatic when her first film was released, only to quickly be shaken by the realities of the world. "I excitedly opened my first fan mail to read a rape fantasy that a man had written me," the clip starts. Chelsea Guglielmino / Getty Images The moment was so jarring, you can see a woman intently listening to Natalie become physically alarmed hearing her share that experience. @xwingally / tiktok.com Natalie goes on, "A countdown was started on my local radio show to my 18th birthday, euphemistically the date that I would be legal to sleep with. Movie reviewers talked about my 'budding breasts' in reviews." Ron Galella, Ltd. / Ron Galella Collection via Getty Images "I understood very quickly, even as a 13‑year‑old, that if I were to express myself sexually, I would feel unsafe," she continued. Steve Granitz / WireImage "So I quickly adjusted my behavior. I rejected any role that even had a kissing scene, and talked about that choice deliberately in interviews. I emphasized how bookish I was and how serious I was, and I cultivated an elegant way of dressing." Kevin.

Mazur / WireImage "I built a reputation for basically being prudish, conservative, nerdy, serious, in an attempt to feel that my body was safe and that my voice would be listened to," she explained. Ron Galella, Ltd. / Ron Galella Collection via Getty Images "I felt the need to cover my body and to inhibit my expression and my work in order to send my own message to the world: That I'm someone worthy of safety and respect." Ron Galella, Ltd. / Ron Galella Collection via Getty Images "A world in which I could wear whatever I want, say whatever I want, and express my desire however I want, without fearing for my physical safety or reputation - that would be the world in which female desire and sexuality could have its greatest expression and fulfillment." Ron Galella, Ltd. / Ron Galella Collection via Getty Images You can watch Natalie's full speech here. "...

Let's declare, loud and clear, this is what I want, this is what I need. This is what I desire. This is how you can help me achieve pleasure. To people of all genders here with us today, let's find a space where we mutually, consensually, look out for each other's pleasure and allow the vast, limitless range of desire to be expressed. Let's make a revolution of desire," she concluded in the clip. @xwingally / tiktok.com It is clear in the comments that most people are thinking the same thing: @xwingally / tiktok.com And some men even stepped up to admit how wrong it can be: @xwingally / tiktok.com Collectively, women were saddened by Natalie's words: @xwingally / tiktok.com And understand it is an all-too-real reality: @xwingally / tiktok.com We still see it with the celebrity age countdowns: @xwingally / tiktok.com And, unfortunately, there were men making disgusting comments that stood as proof: @xwingally / tiktok.com We hope that by continuing to discuss these disheartening topics, more awareness can be spread, so changes can come to fruition. Pascal Le Segretain / Getty Images Whether you're seeking emotional support, medical care, or legal guidance, confidential resources are available below: RAINN (Rape, Abuse & Incest National Network)Call the National Sexual Assault Hotline at 1-800-656-HOPE (4673) or visit www.rainn.org for anonymous, confidential support. They offer a live chat option and can connect you with local resources across the U.S. National Domestic Violence HotlineCall 1-800-799-SAFE (7233) or text "START" to 88788. Visit www.thehot