Courtney Stodden is ringing in 31 alcohol free. On Tuesday, the model, who uses she/they pronouns, took to Instagram to share some final thoughts on being 30 years old... before heading into 31 clean and sober. They wrote: "Last Days of 30... and My First Birthday Sober Since 17. I don't know how to put into words what I feel tonight... The last days of being 30 have been quiet and heavy. I catch myself in the mirror and wonder if anyone truly sees me. I've spent years learning to be strong... to smile... to perform... and yet some nights I feel invisible. "Please 31... be gentle. God, guide me back to the part of myself that still feels alive" Related: Shanna Moakler Shows Off Bikini Body After Weight Loss! They continued: "Day 43 without alcohol. I try to be proud... I try to be grateful... and I am... even when it doesn't fill all the spaces inside. Women like me are always seen through contradictions... strong yet fragile... celebrated yet misunderstood... I hold all of myself... even the messy, tender pieces. I trust God has me... Perhaps this year I will carve out a place where I belong. For now... this is my truth... the rest... I leave beneath the surface #birthdayweek" Alongside the lengthy and vulnerable caption, Courtney added a sultry topless selfie. Birthday suit, we guess?? See (below): View this post on Instagram A post shared by Courtney MF Stodden (@courtneyastodden) We're happy Courtney is on her sobriety journey! Earlier this month, they shared photos of their body before and after quitting alcohol. See (below): View this post on Instagram A post shared by Courtney MF Stodden (@courtneyastodden) Looks like it's working! Happy birthday, Courtney! [Images via Courtney Stodden/Instagram] The post Courtney Stodden Goes Topless While Sharing 'Heavy' Truth Of Sobriety appeared first on Perez Hilton.