by Lauren GarafanoBuzzFeedBuzzFeed Staff This post deals with sensitive topics like suicidal ideation, pregnancy loss, eating disorders, addiction, sexual harassment, grooming of minors, and sexual abuse. Read with caution and take care of yourself ❤️. 1. In her memoir, Brutally Honest, Mel B. recounted her suicide attempt. "My life was a sham. Behind the glitter of fame, I felt emotionally battered, estranged from my family. I felt ugly and detested by the very man who once promised to love and protect me, my husband and manager, Stephen," she wrote. "...

So there I was. Trapped in the vice of my own celebrity image. All smiles on the outside, misery and self-loathing on the inside, always telling the world how happy I was when really all I ever wanted was to scream for help." Amanda Edwards / Getty Images After swallowing a lethal amount of pills, she regretted the decision immediately and called her husband for help. "I couldn't let myself go under. I had to believe things could get better. I couldn't do it to my girls, my family, or all those people who actually believed in me," she wrote. "I looked in the mirror and said, 'No.' Suicide was not the answer. I had to make my life count. I had to get to a hospital, I had to get those pills out of my stomach before anything happened." "Of all the memories from all those hours, it is the one that still floors me... it's like a knife through my heart... It was the saddest moment of my life," she recalled. "It will always live with me. All I ever want is for her to know how sorry I am, how lost I was and how I will never, ever abandon her again." 2. In her memoir, Matriarch, Tina Knowles wrote about her relationship with Beyoncé and Solange's father, Mathew Knowles. When she was pregnant with Solange, she found out about his infidelity and thought about divorcing him. "He would cheat or act up, and I would say I'd had enough. He'd beg for forgiveness, crying and promising to get better." But "the same thing would happen again," Tina wrote. "But this is what married people did, I told myself." Jean Catuffe / GC Images "The marriage was deteriorating faster than I could possibly find ways or reasons to make it work - even with the pregnancy," she wrote. "Mathew's infidelity became so out there for all to see that I could not possibly stay in the marriage." 3. In her memoir, Master of Me, Keke Palmer wrote about being sexually assaulted by her cousin. "I couldn't label it then, but I came to realize that what was being done to me was sex play, immature sex play," she wrote. "As an adult now, I realize my cousin was only regurgitating the things she'd seen. We were children that had seen too much and were trying to live out the things we saw without any concept of what they meant." Arturo Holmes / Getty Images In a separate interview with People, she reflected on the experience, saying, "People don't really think about child-on-child molestation, but it's something that exists. I felt weird and violated, but I didn't really know how to place it. I just knew I had all these weird feelings and thoughts, and I felt a little bit out of control and overwhelmed." 4. In her memoir, Bits and Pieces: My Mother, My Brother, and Me, Whoopi Goldberg wrote about her experience with drug addiction during the '80s. At first, she thought she "could handle the cocaine thing" because of her previous drug use. Shortly after, she "fell into the deep well" with cocaine and was a "very high-functioning addict." Roy Rochlin / Getty Images for SOLO MIO VIP Screening She wrote that her wake-up call was the time she accidentally scared a housekeeper, who found Whoopi on the floor of a hotel closet with cocaine all over her face. "I was letting something else run my life and take me over," she wrote. 5. In his memoir, The House of Hidden Meanings, RuPaul shares that when he was still a minor, he had a relationship with a 36-year-old man named Andrew, a counselor at a gay center. He wrote that one day after a session, Andrew asked Ru to kiss him, which ended up being Ru's first "real kiss." He also wrote that Andrew eventually said they had to wait until Ru was 18 to have sex. Randy Holmes / Disney 6. In her memoir, My Love Story, Tina Turner reflected on her abusive marriage to Ike Turner. "He threw hot coffee in my face, giving me third-degree burns. He used my nose as a punching bag so many times that I could taste blood running down my throat when I sang. He broke my jaw. And I couldn't remember what it was like not to have a black eye." At this time, she had also attempted suicide. She wrote that during one of Ike's tours, she took 50 sleeping pills. Lorne Resnick / Redferns Then, after waking up in the hospital, she recalled Ike in her face saying, "You should die." She added, "When I took those pills, I chose death, and I chose it honestly. I was unhappy when I woke up." 7. In her memoir, Leslie F*cking Jones, Leslie Jones opened up about her trauma from being sexually abused as a todd